If you have ever had a week like mine, you might understand. I have been trying to change a number of habits. I have been sleeping in after staying up late, and I want to be going to bed earlier and getting up early. I have also been attending church on Wednesday nights and Thursday mornings. While this time has been good for my soul, my body, and my family time have been needing attention. I am tired. I am snappish and weak.
This shouldn't surprise me. I have known that I needed to make changes. But, I am just now screwing up the courage to carry through with it. Lowsy old habits. The Quakers have a tradition in prayer that I call "Palms down, Palms up." It is basically like this: You sit in a chair with your hands on your knees, praying for God to help get rid of bad habits (strongholds) and forgive sins by turning your palms down and saying something like "God please forgive me for lying, and those little half truths that pepper my day. I cast them off (palms down)..." and turning your palms up, "...and grow in me a heart of honesty, and integrity to tell the truth, no matter the circumstances, Amen." In this way you are not just leaving a hole for some other stronghold to build up. I have been palms-down, palms-upping a lot lately. Casting off and taking on. I need to do more, but I feel like a shatter pot reforming as it is.
Pray for me.
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